It’s only been a few weeks since I determined that I am seeking spiritual stories. In some regards, I have been looking for spiritual stories for the last few years to better understand God, faith, and spiritual practice. But it was only a few weeks ago when I truly committed to being a spiritual story seeker.
Then yesterday morning my dog Siana died, painfully, at home, while I cried and wailed and prayed as loudly as I could. There was nothing I could do. She had been sick for weeks and then suddenly took a turn for the worse. The medications the Vet recommended helped a little but wouldn’t stop the seizures. By the blessings of God, I had become a Light giver several years before and I started giving her Light again. That stopped the seizures. But I missed a day and they started again.
Her little heart was already under enough stress without the seizures and on May 10th, 2021 she had several massive heart attacks here at home, with me by her side. It was one of the worse experiences of my life. I had never wished more for end-of-life measures. Throughout the whole thing, I gave her Light and prayed out loud.
When she finally took her last breath, I cleaned her up, wrapped her in a towel, and sat with her for an hour giving her Light, sometimes crying and sometimes praying out loud. Then two gigantic angels came and her younger, healthier essences (consciousness, spirit, soul) went prancing off with them. I wrapped her body in a small pillowcase I had sewn for her but hadn’t finished and placed her in a box, tied a bow on it, and took her to get cremated.
The tears had so filled up my eyes I couldn’t see the Vet when I handed her little body over. When I got back into my car it was all I could do to lay across the parking brake and put my forehead on the passenger seat to cry. After a few moments, I drove home (2 miles).
So where is the spiritual story in that? In my opinion, it is a little hidden.
One of the things I have learned about being spiritually awake is that you learn how to place yourself into an awakened state…which allows you to see, hear, feel, and experience the physically unseen, unheard, and un-experienced.
For me, these moments seem the clearest when I am serving others. I get an inclination to bring up something or use an example that seems odd, random, or unfitting to me… but when I follow it, it helps the other person as well or better than I would have liked. It has often catalyzed great change and transformation in people’s lives.
However, on the day of Siana’s death, as I sat with her giving her Light for almost an hour and intermittently praying over her out loud and wailing over the pain that filled my heart…I didn’t expect to see the physically unseeable sight of two gigantic (arch) angels walking off with my dog. I would have never personally imagined that a dog of any kind would garner such attention from the heavens, nor have I ever had an experience of angels before. It was comforting and perplexing simultaneously.
In the morning since, when I lay in bed listening for her pitter-patter, only to realize she is gone and remember the terrible way she died…it is followed by the image of her prancing off happily with the two archangels flanking her sides. And I realize there is something far more powerful that I must just barely be tapping into and only when pushed to extremes.
Maybe I shouldn’t hold back in so many of the places where I hold back because I don’t want my heart to be broken… because right now my heart is broken wide open. But it was in the moment of my greatest pain that I saw that. And it wasn’t of my imagination because I had never imagined such a thing before or even heard of such a thing before.
However, shortly after this experience someone sent me this:
It confirmed what I saw (my vision) and though it felt a little flowery and contrived…it also helped me to validate my experience.
I am a spiritual story seeker now finding stories in my own life.
Do you have a spiritual story you could share with me? One where, like me, you became aware, awakened, enlightened to the existence or workings of spirit? Or an experience that deepened your desire to serve God and spirit (actualization)?
If so, I’d love to hear from you. You can comment below or email me through the contact page to share the whole story, or you can ask me and we’ll set up a time for a Zoom call where we can talk directly.
I’d love to hear your story too.
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